Its boring to be on leave while the rest are in camp. Sad. Nevertheless, its always good to hang around with other cliques. haha. Its alrd friday. Lets hope they're booking out today.

Btw, yesterday was absolutely hilarious. Haha. A night of our own. Me and Daryl, that is. Lets embark on more missions. Lets hope that things will turn out smoothly for me. I've got much to settle in camp. And I just learn that my friend, who is in military police, once booked my camp CO for driving without license. And illegal parking at Changi airport.

Gotta go slp soon. I mean now. still have some stupid battalion amazing race later on in town. Its really useless and pointless la. SAF is pro at time wasting. really.

Army life sucks! ha. really. serious. Budden, i feel obliged to serve it after all. At least, I'd return Singapore a favour. I've been in army for close to 5 mths alrd. Its quite amusing sometimes how fast time flies.

Some people can just b as stubborn as a rock. no matter how hard u push her or shape her, she'll remain just as it is. Yes, go ahead and assume everything. Go and tell all ur frens abt ur side of the story. Let them hear ur acct of the matter. Wittyfully crafted piece of story with flowery melodramatic pinches of flavour. They'll be stunned and appalled to learn that its only the appetizer. Show them to the full-course meal. Go ahead. Anyway it would only teach me more abt u.

You and your assumptions. So sick and tired of them.

Many of my friends have enlisted already. they're in tekong right now. on 8th april, it'll be my turn. haiz. very sian nowadays cos there is an impending confinement of 2 yrs up and ahead. risk my life for singapore for what? as daryl and ben said, if singapore engages in a war, they'll run and hide for their lives rather than risking their lives to try and protect singapore to not much avail. thinking of it though, they're quite right.

i really feel like withdrawing myself from the blogosphere recently. i just have no motivation and lack the drive to continuing blogging consistently and update frequently. what for? why should i let others know what im thinking. shouldn't my own thoughts be safeguarded from external criticism and questioning? fuck it.

went out with kelvin justnow to shop for new year clothes. budden, we ended up buying nothing cos we shopped the entire raffles city shopping centre with nothing that appealed to us. or its just that we have weird tastes and preferences. argh! fuck it. we'll be going to other places this coming thursday to shop again. this time round, real shopping, not window shopping. argh and kelvin is still as lame as ever. haha. he asked me why did roberto carlos' mum name him roberto carlos? he tells me its becos his mum doesn't not want to name his son roberto carlos. thanks eh..

i think my handphone bill is gonna skyrocket beyond control this month. keep answering calls at night when my free incoming call is frm 7am to 7pm. furthermore, despite knowing that i only have free 180 outgoing minutes per month and that i have already used up my free outgoing minutes, i still dare to call out and chat as if theres no tomorrow. after supper with kelvin at lau pa sat jusnow, i rushed to catch my last train back frm raffles city to cck via the north route. throughout the entire trip, even until cck mrt whereby i changed to lrt, i hav been chatting on the phone. guess that will be around like 80mins or so? fuck lah. in time to come, my parents are gonna give me big fat angbaos and they too are gonna receive big fat green angbaos as well, cos starhub envelopes are green in colour.

Fiona just told me that in a msg she sent lastime asking if it is possible between us, she did ask if i like her. budden, i dont recall her asking the latter in her msg. i only read the first part. so i just replied yes becos it is also untrue that it is totally impossible btwn us. so for the past few weeks she've been taking it that i like her. until i clarified with her justnow. haiz.. mayb i should be more straightforward next time, more blatant. hah. i duno. if ur reading this, i just hope that things will remain as it is. its not important whether i like u or not. its just that we are not meant for each other. you just dont know me well enough. im not ur type.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Ushering in the new year is a string of events that marked the first day of 2006. My new years' eve period is spent with a group of my friends, walking down the isle of Orchard Road, doing nothing but assigning workloads to our feet. We started our journey from hyatt, walking down towards city hall area, passing by wisma, taka and ps. ended up at singapore river and the rest continued their journey towards lau pa sat(old market) for supper. I abandoned them halfway cos i gave my word to another fren to meet her. I waited alil' too long for a cab and got quite pissed off. All the other available cabs were either on-call or busy? what the fuck. just bcos some fucking selfish cab drivers wanna earn alil' over 2 bucks more, they'd rather drive around aimlessly to wait for calls at the cost of customer's soverignty? They're lots of pple out there in a hurry to get a cab asap, me included, and lots of empty cabs out there. Fucking pissed off. after shelfing more than 30mins off my new years' day, i finally managed to get a cab and i had a nice lil' chat with the driver. Much to my surprise, he actually switched off his on-board communication device and he'd rather pick passengers up on the spot than waiting for calls. he's one of the few cabbies out there plying the streets of singapore who are considerate and not selfish. thankyounicecabbie!

After meeting up with my fren at fareast whilst the rest were still in chinablack, we pampered ourselves with merci chocs and black cat. hahaha. wth!!!! Thank God i inherit my dad's genes of being able to take liquor well. budden, alcohol isn't good for anyone's body. furthermore, its 40% alcohol. no child's play.

And yes, we managed to finish the entire bottle, both of us only. hhaa. a round of applause please...

After the rest came out of cb, we went to Mark's place in hopes of shaving his head cos he's enlisting on thursday, but too bad his shaver was unavailable.

Many of my friends are enlisting in january. haiz.. i sense impending isolation. Mundanity and monotonousity await in fate's favour. Im gonna find stuff to occupy myself with before i enlist in April. Perhaps finding a job is a good option. Finding a good job is an option.

After i reached home at around 2, i went to sleep and woke up at around 945 to reply afew msges and answer afew calls. I was supposed to meet up with Ben, Mark n Daryl, of whom Ben n Mark are enlisting in january. Budden, i went back to slp again soon after i hung up his call. wth. im a pig. an oinky one. sorry didnt mean to pangseh y'all. cos i woke up at arnd 5am this morning, penning down my account right here, right now.

The year 2005 has been a year of crests and troughs, with many major events and incidents to its account. the fucking T.T.Durian one really got my blood boiling! Every one dollar we donate, 10 cents go to the poor and needy whereas 90 cents go to the rich and wealthy? Even though he resigned and that the governing body has changed, i still cannot simply reinstate my trust back so easily. Lets not forget that approximately a year back, the Asian tsunami struck and claimed hundreds and thousands of lives. How'bt the chopping up of the maid's body that was found in the heart of our very own shopping paradise, Orchard Road. The London bombings only goes to prove how fucking hum the terrorists are, and will be. They're just misusing the name and religion of Muslim to fuel frustration and anger amongst peace seekers. They're sending a train of irreverent mockery towards their own religion, their own belief. We should never regard the terrorists as part of our image of Muslims. cos i believe all religion promote peace and kindness, unlike terrorism. And i hope that Bush resigns his US presidency, for his selfish acts condemn the entire reputation of the US.

On the flip side of the coin, there are some events in 2005that are worthy of our joy and celebration. In the SEA Games '05, Singapore did exceptionally well, attaining 42 golds and setting many respectable records in the competition. Not to forget, Singapore's economic growth for that year has been slightly more than forecasted. Finally, lets not forget that COE prices has fallen to the all-time lowest in the decade and this piece of news should bring much joy and excitement to avid car lovers and buyers.

Lets hope that the year 2006 will have lots of pleasant surprises in store for all of us!

yan ye rocks da world! (:
keke.
she is super smart.
unlike bao bao.
haha.
and she is cute and adorable.
and she wans to eat hawaiian pizza now.
with lotsa parmesan cheese.
and she wans beef lasagne.
and spicy drumlets.
and bao is gonna treat her.
(:
righto!

Recap on the trip to sentosa yesterday:
I was supposed to meet Ben n the rest to go down for some tanning. However, coincidentally, my class also arranged to go down on that day. Since I've never seen many of my classmates for quite awhile now and that I've been hanging out recently with Ben and gang, my guilty conscious summoned me to make up for my absence from my classmates, although not many were going. Khai was the one who organised it la, and he said it was at Palawan beach. A few of us met n went to harbourfront food centre for our breakfirst. The chicken rice there is one of the best i tell u. Afterwhich, we went down to sentosa and made our way straight to Palawan beach.

Fik and Theva were just too excited, as shown in this photo. And before we came, while we were having our breakfirst at the food centre, a promoter came and introduced their duno what body spray to us. The guy placed afew bottles on the table and said: "Today i see you all so steady, so on, i would not hesitate to give you three bottles for the price of one." Theva secretly took one of the bottles n hid it. The promoter finally gave up after continuous teasing and jacking by Theva. He realised that he is missing a bottle on the table, so he kindly asked in a sympathetic tone: "eh okay u all dont wanna buy its okay, i really enjoyed my time with u all. u all very fun. but hor can please return me my other bottle anot." hahah! After much persuading, Theva finally returned the bottle he took. but before he handed over the bottle, he removed the cap and hid it again. Now sounding damn desperate, the promoter pleaded for us to stop playing him. And yes finally Theva returned the bottle cap. Being extremely nervous and embarrassed, the promoter shivered and attempted to hold two bottles in one hand while holding the bottle cap in the other hand. As he was trying to place the cap back, sheer carelessness results in him dropping one of the bottles.. and SMASH!!! haha. Luckily none of us got cut by the broken and scattered glass debris. Fortunately enough, i was just sitting beside the promoter and got a free shower of the spray on my right foot when it smahed upon impact, dissipating all its solvent, all its fragrant content on my leg. Haha. That poor promoter has to pay for the smashed bottle i guess.

Not letting the embarrassing moment affect our mood, we non-hesitantly made our way down to the beach.We reached there and walked down the entire isle of the beach and caught absolutely no sight of Khai la. haha. unless hes up there in the trees. if not, theres no reason y we cant find him lor. We then decided to enjoy ourselves first and try to find him again later la. In the end, we played until forgot to find him. And yes, we cant contact him cos he doesnt have a handphone nor pager with him!! Yes im talking abt the yr 2005, not 1905. So, with all of us feeling damn sian 1/2, we just said to ourselves that we do our own stuff and forget abt finding him or what lah. Anyway he've got his brother and his brother's friends as well. So we just went our own way lor. Beach soccer was fun, yet tiring, especially under the blistering hot sun, machiam playing soccer on a frying pan, cos even the sand is lukewarm. A group of malays came over and joined us cos we dont have enough pple to play against ourselves anyway, and so, we're more than happy and glad to have them. They're friendly and skilled lah haha. and they're funny as well. And sherfeeq actually played while holding a can of beer in his hand haha. Sadly, to no avail has it inspired him.
Being quite sick of soccer, we actually sat down and began playing with sand, moulding any structure that came into our minds. Shawn built a series of volcanoes with huge craters whereas fik constructed a rift valley or something haha. or mayb its an oceanic trench haha i duno. And then ray got angry n frustrated cos fik n theva threw insults at him non-stop in a joking manner, and he resolved to violence, throwing pebbles and sand at one another. The poor, hapless me, sitting in between them in the war zone, was not spared either. I suffered a headshot from ray, bloody hell!

Yes! and apart from playing sand, we all combined our efforts and inspiration to craft out a..... female body!!! hahahahahah!!!!! It even have boobs to boot. lol. budden, its arms are too long and shoulders too wide. Looks pretty much like an alien. it was pretty much a lumpish situation.


But after much thought and discussion, we felt that she was too ugly and needed a face badly. So we decided to construct her a model face. Looks too small on her though. Haha.


All in all, sentosa is basically a mecca for bikini babes and cheekos. or mayb not cheekos, but young, sexually active teenagers. hahaha.

Im feeling quite tired now and im fucking lazy lar. Dont have the mood nor the will to go out later. but the rest of them r going Gotham leh and im supposed to go with them. lets hope tonight will turn out to b a great one. Otherwise, i'll cry man! hahaz. Oh and justnow, keat n mark were skating arnd cck area and they gave me a call to ask if they can come over to my place. Haha dingus man!! skate halfway come my house. Think what, my house is the checkpoint arh lol. Anyway staying at home alone also very sian, so their company can at least bring me out of isolation. Guess what? all we did were playing ps and watching "movies". -_-"'?!!

Thanks to Yan, i finally know how to answer to Fiona. Actually, i have already had my answer on my own. Its just that i really duno how to bring it out and to tell her. I'm also in a dilemma as to whether i should give her my true answer or to deceive her and myself further. At least now im being true to both of us ya? That issue apart, Yan has been accusing me of treating her contumely and being utterly contumacious? haha i dont know what have i done to deserve such compliments. Sometimes, i can be quite sick of her wittering abt me being emaciated, dao, unfriendly and rude to her. However, her good deal of banter often elicits much laughter in me, and everytime she does she would exult over my stupidity. I must mention that she is being very didactic always, especially in our msn conversations. She's always so eager to spot flaws and mistakes in my writing, and then immediately correcting me. She likes to teach me how to be more polite and to be a gentleman. Im gonna feel alil' emasculated if i keep learning from her and obeying her. Haha. Not to forget, her conversations are always filled with witticism, which amuses me once in a while. Okay i know my english sucks big time, but hey, since when has blogs became an obligation to write flawlessly in flowery language? haha. If you dont believe me, read http://rockson.blogspot.com, which of cos is of no semblance of any perfect and mastery language. But yet, his writing is arguably eloquent and beautifully satirical, exuding certain quality that is prevalent throughout his blog. All in all, Yan is quite extroverted i guess haha.

i dont understand why some pple feel so fucking arrogant and still take things for granted. I dont see why some pple must always look down and despise upon others. We're all created to be of coequal status. since when has that been changed?

another matter that caught my attention is as follows: ive been an acs boy for 10 yrs and i've never experienced such great an extent of hatred and dismay towards acs. yes, some pple can b ignorant and proud, but arent you stereotyping to draw that dismissive opinions of yours towards the entire school on the whole? Why give that long disdainful look when the term acs comes across?

Sadly, ive admitted that i already gave up on some pple.
im accused of being insensitive towards her.
she said that im always compromising her.
and that she shouldnt have even stepped into my world in the first place.
am i that selfish?
am i obliged to feel the same way as u feel for me?
you are like my sister, my best friend.
i thought you are the one that has been the most real to me.
wearing no facade but being your very self.
i trusted u the most more than i trust anyone.
we could have became lifelong friends
seeking spiritual reconciliation togather.
now that you asked me if there's any chance between us,
and that you demanded a straightforward answer from me,
I am in a dilemma
where my thoughts are dissipated and scattered
not knowing whether to speak my mind or to lie to you.
fearing that once you know the answer,
we might no longer be friends even.
you will always be the best friend i ever had.
whether that will continue, i do not know.

go find your true happiness
for i am not good enough for you
or perhaps
you just dont know me well enough to get turned off
i am not as pure and innocent as u think
far from decent is what i am
wait till you see a different side of me
only then would you wake up into realisation of your senses

Came back home not long ago after meeting the guys to go shopping for foundation haha. We plan to wear makeup for new yr party, paint our nails, lipgloss n stuff, indulging ourselves in a lil' world of metrosexuals. okay like WHATEVER?! then we came all the way back to lot1 and had supper. we had some green cold beancurd which is FCUKING NICE I SWEAR!! and meanwhile, Daryl said that boxing day is to commemorate Muhammed Ali, the great boxing legend and i almost bought it? haha. Daryl hafta go off halfway to meet his fren for movie, so the rest of us went to play pool.

We're like supposed to meet at 6 at jurong point but i woke up at arnd 8 plus and i rushed all the way down there. haha im a pig. oversleeping is my niche.

On friday, the bunch of us went to indochine and partae'ed till our balls drop. Its really fun larh, but on the worse note, there were some mishaps. Firstly, i duno who da hell carried me up to the bloody table larh then force me to dance on the table. The thing is that the table itself is unstable, shaking and swaying in all directions. So there u go, a lil' poor fella, trying hard to even keep his balance on the table, not to mention dancing on it. Then, VIOLA, two bouncers came to stop me from going far too wild above, amdist a confinement of submissive fellas swaying conservatively, in all ways but satisfying their libido. As a result, i came down from the table lest i get kicked out of the place. Secondly, a jovial Ben poured a cup of cigarette ash onto my body, thinking that the cup was empty and clean. To add icing to the cake, the gargantuan Sathiya topped it off by pouring a cup of leftover liquor onto my hair. Oh great thanks, i went back home the next morning smelling as if i've drank much and smoked. Hey but thats not me, cos im the good boy, your next door gentlekid so innocently pure. DINGUS!

And u know what... we received an appalling msg that MARK GOT INTO A FIGHT....

...like WOW, A FIGHT. so all of us went out to check out whats wrong.

yes and we learn that Mark danced dirty with this girl which a guy have been eyeing for a week? SO the damn damn damn guy confronted Mark and talked things out. its unforgivably intruguing to all of us that some pple actually wanna get into a fight just over such minute and meaningless shit matter? Furthermore, the girl don't even know the damn guy well, needless to say like him or what. In fact, she's quite pissed off and irritated by the damn guy as well. If she can find happiness in Mark, i see absolutely no reason why she cant have her own freedom and rights to choosing her dance partner. And is she obliged to turn away from all guys other than the damn him in the first place? Fucking penishead indeed, and a fat one. Trying to act tough in front of his girl arh? Ball'less shit. nincompoop. get a life.

Just as things are resolving and residing to idle, where both parties are shaking hands and bidding peace, Shankar suddenly marched out with that want-to-fight-but-dont-dare-to-fight face and shouted:

"Hey dae nbccb who is the one that wanna fight ar dae?"

like -_-'"? haha a great turnoff man. Thank God no fight that day. Cos its christmas eve's eve.

Went back home the next day morning and indulged in that welcoming bed of mine. *orgasm.
Some of us guys went over to Keat's house that night and spent our entire night there. Played xbox, cards, basketball and ate cup noodles, with Black Cat to boot. then it rained. like thanks man.

Spent my christmas eve at keat's house at the expense of forgoing my friend's invitation to mos. Kelvin asked me to go mos with him on that saturday night but i already have other commitment. so perhaps tomorrow, which will be monday(time flies so damn fast), i will probably meet him to go real shopping, window shopping and slack arnd. SEE YA KELV!!!!