Many of my friends have enlisted already. they're in tekong right now. on 8th april, it'll be my turn. haiz. very sian nowadays cos there is an impending confinement of 2 yrs up and ahead. risk my life for singapore for what? as daryl and ben said, if singapore engages in a war, they'll run and hide for their lives rather than risking their lives to try and protect singapore to not much avail. thinking of it though, they're quite right.

i really feel like withdrawing myself from the blogosphere recently. i just have no motivation and lack the drive to continuing blogging consistently and update frequently. what for? why should i let others know what im thinking. shouldn't my own thoughts be safeguarded from external criticism and questioning? fuck it.

went out with kelvin justnow to shop for new year clothes. budden, we ended up buying nothing cos we shopped the entire raffles city shopping centre with nothing that appealed to us. or its just that we have weird tastes and preferences. argh! fuck it. we'll be going to other places this coming thursday to shop again. this time round, real shopping, not window shopping. argh and kelvin is still as lame as ever. haha. he asked me why did roberto carlos' mum name him roberto carlos? he tells me its becos his mum doesn't not want to name his son roberto carlos. thanks eh..

i think my handphone bill is gonna skyrocket beyond control this month. keep answering calls at night when my free incoming call is frm 7am to 7pm. furthermore, despite knowing that i only have free 180 outgoing minutes per month and that i have already used up my free outgoing minutes, i still dare to call out and chat as if theres no tomorrow. after supper with kelvin at lau pa sat jusnow, i rushed to catch my last train back frm raffles city to cck via the north route. throughout the entire trip, even until cck mrt whereby i changed to lrt, i hav been chatting on the phone. guess that will be around like 80mins or so? fuck lah. in time to come, my parents are gonna give me big fat angbaos and they too are gonna receive big fat green angbaos as well, cos starhub envelopes are green in colour.

Fiona just told me that in a msg she sent lastime asking if it is possible between us, she did ask if i like her. budden, i dont recall her asking the latter in her msg. i only read the first part. so i just replied yes becos it is also untrue that it is totally impossible btwn us. so for the past few weeks she've been taking it that i like her. until i clarified with her justnow. haiz.. mayb i should be more straightforward next time, more blatant. hah. i duno. if ur reading this, i just hope that things will remain as it is. its not important whether i like u or not. its just that we are not meant for each other. you just dont know me well enough. im not ur type.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Ushering in the new year is a string of events that marked the first day of 2006. My new years' eve period is spent with a group of my friends, walking down the isle of Orchard Road, doing nothing but assigning workloads to our feet. We started our journey from hyatt, walking down towards city hall area, passing by wisma, taka and ps. ended up at singapore river and the rest continued their journey towards lau pa sat(old market) for supper. I abandoned them halfway cos i gave my word to another fren to meet her. I waited alil' too long for a cab and got quite pissed off. All the other available cabs were either on-call or busy? what the fuck. just bcos some fucking selfish cab drivers wanna earn alil' over 2 bucks more, they'd rather drive around aimlessly to wait for calls at the cost of customer's soverignty? They're lots of pple out there in a hurry to get a cab asap, me included, and lots of empty cabs out there. Fucking pissed off. after shelfing more than 30mins off my new years' day, i finally managed to get a cab and i had a nice lil' chat with the driver. Much to my surprise, he actually switched off his on-board communication device and he'd rather pick passengers up on the spot than waiting for calls. he's one of the few cabbies out there plying the streets of singapore who are considerate and not selfish. thankyounicecabbie!

After meeting up with my fren at fareast whilst the rest were still in chinablack, we pampered ourselves with merci chocs and black cat. hahaha. wth!!!! Thank God i inherit my dad's genes of being able to take liquor well. budden, alcohol isn't good for anyone's body. furthermore, its 40% alcohol. no child's play.

And yes, we managed to finish the entire bottle, both of us only. hhaa. a round of applause please...

After the rest came out of cb, we went to Mark's place in hopes of shaving his head cos he's enlisting on thursday, but too bad his shaver was unavailable.

Many of my friends are enlisting in january. haiz.. i sense impending isolation. Mundanity and monotonousity await in fate's favour. Im gonna find stuff to occupy myself with before i enlist in April. Perhaps finding a job is a good option. Finding a good job is an option.

After i reached home at around 2, i went to sleep and woke up at around 945 to reply afew msges and answer afew calls. I was supposed to meet up with Ben, Mark n Daryl, of whom Ben n Mark are enlisting in january. Budden, i went back to slp again soon after i hung up his call. wth. im a pig. an oinky one. sorry didnt mean to pangseh y'all. cos i woke up at arnd 5am this morning, penning down my account right here, right now.

The year 2005 has been a year of crests and troughs, with many major events and incidents to its account. the fucking T.T.Durian one really got my blood boiling! Every one dollar we donate, 10 cents go to the poor and needy whereas 90 cents go to the rich and wealthy? Even though he resigned and that the governing body has changed, i still cannot simply reinstate my trust back so easily. Lets not forget that approximately a year back, the Asian tsunami struck and claimed hundreds and thousands of lives. How'bt the chopping up of the maid's body that was found in the heart of our very own shopping paradise, Orchard Road. The London bombings only goes to prove how fucking hum the terrorists are, and will be. They're just misusing the name and religion of Muslim to fuel frustration and anger amongst peace seekers. They're sending a train of irreverent mockery towards their own religion, their own belief. We should never regard the terrorists as part of our image of Muslims. cos i believe all religion promote peace and kindness, unlike terrorism. And i hope that Bush resigns his US presidency, for his selfish acts condemn the entire reputation of the US.

On the flip side of the coin, there are some events in 2005that are worthy of our joy and celebration. In the SEA Games '05, Singapore did exceptionally well, attaining 42 golds and setting many respectable records in the competition. Not to forget, Singapore's economic growth for that year has been slightly more than forecasted. Finally, lets not forget that COE prices has fallen to the all-time lowest in the decade and this piece of news should bring much joy and excitement to avid car lovers and buyers.

Lets hope that the year 2006 will have lots of pleasant surprises in store for all of us!