Many of my friends have enlisted already. they're in tekong right now. on 8th april, it'll be my turn. haiz. very sian nowadays cos there is an impending confinement of 2 yrs up and ahead. risk my life for singapore for what? as daryl and ben said, if singapore engages in a war, they'll run and hide for their lives rather than risking their lives to try and protect singapore to not much avail. thinking of it though, they're quite right.

i really feel like withdrawing myself from the blogosphere recently. i just have no motivation and lack the drive to continuing blogging consistently and update frequently. what for? why should i let others know what im thinking. shouldn't my own thoughts be safeguarded from external criticism and questioning? fuck it.

went out with kelvin justnow to shop for new year clothes. budden, we ended up buying nothing cos we shopped the entire raffles city shopping centre with nothing that appealed to us. or its just that we have weird tastes and preferences. argh! fuck it. we'll be going to other places this coming thursday to shop again. this time round, real shopping, not window shopping. argh and kelvin is still as lame as ever. haha. he asked me why did roberto carlos' mum name him roberto carlos? he tells me its becos his mum doesn't not want to name his son roberto carlos. thanks eh..

i think my handphone bill is gonna skyrocket beyond control this month. keep answering calls at night when my free incoming call is frm 7am to 7pm. furthermore, despite knowing that i only have free 180 outgoing minutes per month and that i have already used up my free outgoing minutes, i still dare to call out and chat as if theres no tomorrow. after supper with kelvin at lau pa sat jusnow, i rushed to catch my last train back frm raffles city to cck via the north route. throughout the entire trip, even until cck mrt whereby i changed to lrt, i hav been chatting on the phone. guess that will be around like 80mins or so? fuck lah. in time to come, my parents are gonna give me big fat angbaos and they too are gonna receive big fat green angbaos as well, cos starhub envelopes are green in colour.

Fiona just told me that in a msg she sent lastime asking if it is possible between us, she did ask if i like her. budden, i dont recall her asking the latter in her msg. i only read the first part. so i just replied yes becos it is also untrue that it is totally impossible btwn us. so for the past few weeks she've been taking it that i like her. until i clarified with her justnow. haiz.. mayb i should be more straightforward next time, more blatant. hah. i duno. if ur reading this, i just hope that things will remain as it is. its not important whether i like u or not. its just that we are not meant for each other. you just dont know me well enough. im not ur type.